securities

why did I fight so hard to be with you again eventhough I know you don’t even care? or you don’t EVER want it?

Yet, you responded to me. But somehow, I know how it’ll end. You’ll just walk away again.

I know you well enough. I know how you will act. I know you like someone that maybe better than me, that’s for sure. I know you want to be with H. I know you only think me as a “friend”. I know that when you text me something sweet, yet you send the same one or the sweeter one to that girl (yeah, your friends told me a lot u_u).

You know? I do mad about what you do. Talk to me whenever you want, but then leave or ignore me whenever you want. You said those sweet things yet you also did it to her. And you just did it over and over again. But.. I think I never ran out of patience when I’m dealing with you.

I know we can’t go back like those days. But, why do I still try? Although I know we can’t and would never fix it. And you don’t want it.

What is it that I fight for? All this time

Shit.

I don’t know.

Is it love? or am I just lonely?

Well, no matter how hard I’ve tried, may H  is still the winner.

I guess I got to move on